Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Moments of Pause

I got something in the mail yesterday and it was exactly what I needed at the moment. 

Sent by my dear friend Leisha. Etsy shop here. Thank you so much!

I love this verse for its simplicity. 

Be still. That is something that we can all do and something that I have been trying to do lately. In those moments at work, at the grocery store or at home when I don't think I can breathe for one more second...I pause and remember this verse. 

I can hear Him in my head..."I am God. I love you. I am here. Let me help."

Have you paused to listen to Him lately?


Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Sometimes and Always #15

Sometimes: I wish that I could sing. 

Always: I remember that I have ZERO singing ability. More like negative ability.

Sometimes: I think my other two pups get a little jealous of Diesel

Always: I love them just as much...promise. ; )

Radar

Cashmere

Sometimes: My husband refuses to watch my favorite shows.

Always: He will watch Sweet Home Alabama...he's a good ole country boy!

Sometimes: Work gets a little bit crazy.

Always: We get fun/hyper/delirious in the crazy times.

Doing "the claw." Liar Liar, anyone?

Sometimes: I pick the split ends off my hair.

Always: It freaks people out. Get over it, people!

Sometimes: I'm the obnoxious wife who slaps her husband's butt. 

Always: He enjoys it. And I do, too. : )

Country cutie. 

And guess what y'all? There's a new button for the link up this week! Thanks, Meg! Feel free to grab the code from my sidebar and link up!




Monday, February 27, 2012

Lessons from a Pit Bull

Diesel is my sweet pit bull puppy. He is a momma's boy and pretty much holds the key to my heart. 

I figured he could teach us all a few life lessons today...plus he's just too stinking cute not to show off!

- Sometimes lookin' good takes a lot of work.

- You may start out as the little guy...

- ...but with hard work (and eating a lot of dog food) you become the big dog.

- Don't be embarrassed to lean on your family for support. 

- Go out of your way to say hello to the neighbors. 

- Working (aka chewing toys) is pretty tough work.

- Sometimes life deals you a rough hand. 

- Everyone needs a little sunlight. 

- Sometimes you gotta let your parents clean up your mess. 

- Don't be afraid to do things a little different than everyone else.

- Sometimes you gotta make a scene to get noticed.

Isn't my sweet little boy so cute?! 

He always manages to make me laugh and put a smile on my face. I think that's why God made pets...because they really do bring so much joy into life. Granted, they shed and make a huge mess sometimes, but they are always there when you need them. 


Sunday, February 26, 2012

Nostalgia

Lately I have been feeling so blessed to have such amazing friends. College was a great experience for me and that's where I met the four girls who were my best friends then...and continue to be my best friends now. We may be separated by distance now, but nothing can ever separate that best friend/sister bond. 

I was looking back at old pictures, just so grateful for all the fun (clean fun!) that we had in college. God was so good to us and we had four absolutely crazy fun years of living together in the dorm. 

Homecoming.

School "hoedown" for Homecoming. 


Visiting prisons for fun. 

Stuffed animal fights. 

Dance parties. 

My dorm room, similar to a 4 year old's room.

Skipping down the halls on the last day of class.

Burning our nursing uniforms.

Graduating.

I love looking back at old pictures...it brings up such good memories. It also reminds me that life is so much better when you get to experience it with friends and family. So much better. 


Friday, February 24, 2012

Overcoming Fear

A lot of people have emailed me saying how "strong" or "brave" I was to share our miscarriage story on my blog. But really, I didn't feel strong or brave at all when I wrote it. I felt terrified and sad and really lonely, but God led me to share our story and through that I have received amazing support and love...and there are people all over the world saying prayers for us. And that...well, that's pretty amazing.

Sometimes being honest and truthful is healing and inspiring and touching...and that is my favorite part of blogging.

Of course it's fun to read about fashion and crafts and the latest tv shows. I have gained so much inspiration from blogging (and Pinterest). I'm inspired to cook better, eat better, decorate better, dress better...and the list goes on and on. But don't be afraid to blog about things that are "real."

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And even further, don't be afraid to let your inner feelings out...your highs and lows, your fears and dreams. We have the chance to impact other people and set about changing the world. I was scared to write about our miscarriage. So scared. But that is our life right now and that is our journey...and I'm not ashamed to admit that we are hurting and we need love and prayer. We are on this path and we are trusting in the Lord and that's all that we can do. So don't ever be embarrassed or afraid to blog about real issues.

Life is real...and it's certainly not perfect...and we all have to experience the good and the bad. 


Thursday, February 23, 2012

Chocolate Happiness


We certainly haven't really had anything to celebrate lately, but sometimes just making it through the day deserves celebration itself. 





This has become our new favorite dessert lately...it's simple and totally delicious. Plus, we eat some strawberries and that makes it healthy. Cookies are so last year. 

Except not really because we made chocolate chip ones last night. 

Dessert never goes out of style. 


Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Sometimes and Always #14

I'm back with the link up for Sometimes and Always today.

It feels nice to be blogging again...weird, but nice. 

Sometimes: I take my husband for granted without meaning to. 

Always: I realize that I'm so blessed to have him by my side in this life. 


Sometimes: I want to sleep in on church mornings. 

Always: I am SO grateful that I go...God speaks to me every single time. 

Sometimes: I don't like buying flowers because they are so expensive. 

Always: Flowers sent in love are so beautiful and lift my heart. 


Sometimes: I feel guilty when I laugh or have a happy moment. 

Always: I'm thinking that's a pretty normal part of the grieving process.

Sometimes: I think I love the blog world as much as I can. 

Always: My blog friends amaze me and my love grows daily for this blog thing we got goin' on.

Thank you, sweet Julie

Sometimes: I feel like I can't take one more second of this pain

Always: I stop and pray...and God is there...and He keeps me going. 

Feel free to use this button to link up!





Monday, February 20, 2012

Our Days with Baby

First of all, I am seriously overwhelmed by the outpouring of love on yesterday's post. Y'all are amazing and left me with tears...good tears. We were comforted, supported and blessed by the words that y'all left for us. 

Thank you. A million times thank you. I just can't say it enough. 

I want to share some pictures today that were taken while our sweet baby was with us. It's hard to look at these and post them, but I want to...because our baby was real. Our baby was here. Our baby exists. We were so in love with our baby already. And I never want to forget that. I think that's one of the hardest things, feeling like your baby gets forgotten. 

The night that I told the hubs that I was pregnant. 

After our first ultrasound. 


After telling my best friends. 


Telling Michaela on Skype. 

Baby, you were so loved and anticipated while you were here with us...and now we anxiously await meeting you and holding you in heaven one day. We treasure the days that you were here. And we love you, baby.


Sunday, February 19, 2012

A Post I Never Expected to Write

This is hard...and has taken me a few days to finish. 

My blogging has been scarce lately...and I know it's been noticed because so many of y'all have sent sweet emails to check on me (which I have really needed and appreciated). I wanted to just write a "fluff" post today, something happy to ease myself back into blogging, but I couldn't. No words would come and it just didn't feel "right." 

So instead, I'm ready to talk and spill my heart...to share what has been going on as best as I can. 

On December 19, my husband and I were quite surprised to find out that I was pregnant. We told our families at Christmas and a few close friends in the following weeks. It was a total shock, but we were so excited. We had our first appointment and ultrasound on January 10th at 8 weeks. Our sweet baby looked perfect and the heartbeat was strong at 141. Nothing describes the emotion of seeing your baby on the ultrasound for the first time, even when it barely looks like a speck. Just to hear "everything looks great" is the most wonderful thing in the world. We told a few more people here and there, but were waiting for the "big" announcement until further along in the pregnancy.

We went in for our second appointment and ultrasound on February 7th. I was 11 weeks and 3 days and feeling great. A few minutes into the ultrasound, the tech uttered horrible words, "Let me go get the doctor really quick." I'm a nurse...and I know that that is always a bad sign, but I still wasn't prepared for what came next. The next few minutes felt like hours and seconds all at once and we were informed that our baby no longer had a heartbeat.

Even now it's still really hard for me to type that.

We were shocked, devastated...all those horrible words that really don't convey the hurt or pain deeply enough. I had had no bleeding or pain to signal a miscarriage, yet our sweet baby had already gone to live with our Lord a few weeks before.

These last two weeks have been really bad...but somehow even among that really bad, God has reached down to us and comforted us. Family and friends have come out from everywhere with love, tears, support, food and flowers. We are blessed. Even in this chapter of our lives, we are blessed. Blessed with each other and with our family and friends...and with the TRUTH that our baby lives in heaven...and we will meet him/her one day.

I'm not gonna share all the details of our miscarriage story, but if it's something that you are going through personally or have been through, I am here...I want to love on you and listen to you. I want to pray for you, as so many people prayed for us. Email me, please. I'd love to talk with you. I gained so much comfort and support from fellow bloggers that had had the courage to share their miscarriage stories previously...and now I want to do the same. I want this baby, our baby, to touch other people beyond his/her short days.

We are very slowly picking up the pieces over here. We have good days and bad days, happy moments and heart-wrenching moments. We miss our baby. We are parents, even if we never got to hold our baby. 


Friday, February 10, 2012

A Song


To everyone who's lost someone they love
Long before it was their time
You feel like the days you had were not enough
when you said goodbye

And to all of the people with burdens and pains
Keeping you back from your life
You believe that there's nothing and there is no one
Who can make it right



There is hope for the helpless
Rest for the weary
Love for the broken heart
There is grace and forgiveness
Mercy and healing
He'll meet you wherever you are
Cry out to Jesus, Cry out to Jesus


For the marriage that's struggling just to hang on
They lost all of their faith and love
They've done all they can to make it right again
Still it's not enough

For the ones who can't break the addictions and chains
You try to give up but you come back again
Just remember that you're not alone in your shame
And your suffering



There is hope for the helpless
Rest for the weary
Love for the broken heart
There is grace and forgiveness
Mercy and healing
He'll meet you wherever you are
Cry out to Jesus, Cry out to Jesus. 



Lyrics: Cry Out to Jesus by Third Day. Watch the video here.


Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Sometimes and Always #13

I've been thinking in sometimes/always thoughts lately, so I'm glad that I can finally share a few today!

Sometimes: I read the news headlines when I get on the internet. 

Always: I end up feeling pretty sad about the things that people do to each other. 

Sometimes: I want to make healthy eating choices. 

Always: I can't pass up certain things...like Taco Bell. YUM!

Late night snack with the hubs after a successful grocery trip!

But then we had grapes, so that totally balances it out. 

Sometimes: I think about homeschooling my (future) children. 

Always: I get really tired of people saying, "They'll be weird!"

Sometimes: I attempt cooking. 

Always: I manage to make a mess, even with something simple. 

A frozen pizza that I dropped in the oven. Notice the broken piece and sliding cheese. Win. 

Sometimes: I think I should be embarrassed that this whole post only has food pictures. 

Always: I'm just being true to myself. 

Sometimes: I write guest posts...like about music for my sweet friend Renee. 

Always: I love it when people actually follow the link and read them! (click here!)  ; )

Feel free to use this button and link up!




Monday, February 6, 2012

Love and Kindness Link Up


I'm so excited that today is FINALLY here and we all get to share the sweet things that we did for others! 

Of course, these posts are definitely not to brag, but more to inspire others and encourage them to do the same! It's amazing to think of how many people we could touch together. 

So go ahead and write up your post about the random acts of kindness that you did this last week, then link up with us and share! And it's not too late...the link up will be open all week for those late to the party!

Feel free to use this button in your post!

This week:

- I left a $5 bill and a sweet note on a random car in the parking lot. 

- I baked cookies for my hubby and served them to him with a big ole glass of milk!

- I called one of my friends from college, just to say hey. (I'm terrible about texting and never calling!)

- I taped a $5 bill and a sweet note to my buggy at the store.

- I wrote an encouraging note to a coworker. 

- I made an Oreo cake for my husband and the guys at the fire station. 

YUM!

I know this sounds weird...but it is seriously fun to do these little acts. I kinda felt like a secret spy Santa Claus, leaving gifts and then chuckling to myself. Love and kindness kicking butt and taking over the world. Mwwwahahaha. : ) 

My new goal is to do a random act of kindness for someone once a week! 

I can't wait to see what y'all have done...I love seeing kindness take over the blog world!

Love, love!


Sunday, February 5, 2012

Don't Forget...

...that tomorrow is the link up for the kindness/love movement that Anna, Michaela and I are hosting!

There's still plenty of time to do something sweet for someone...whether it's a random stranger or a close friend! Leave a sweet note, pay for someone's coffee or bake cookies for a neighbor. Find more details here!


Anna made this adorable button, so feel free to use it on your post tomorrow!

I can't wait to see what everyone has done to spread a little sunshine in the world!

Meanwhile, over in this neck of the woods, the hubs and I spent Saturday working on our dishwasher...which was holding water and smelled a little like poop and eggs. Yum. 


It's fixed now, thanks to my handy dandy hubs. Clearly, I did nothing except take pictures. 

Love, love!

PS: There's still a few days left to enter my giveaway for a phone case! Go here to enter!