I turned 27 this past Saturday and while I'm not silly enough to say "I'm so old," I must admit that this is the first age where I thought that in my head. I don't know what it is about 27, but it just sounds so much more adult-like and mature than 26. Or maybe I'm just crazy.
I've been doing a little bit of reflecting lately (I think it's the pregnancy hormones!) and I thought I'd share a little bit about where I pictured myself at 27 versus where I really am.
- I thought that I would have at least one child by now, if not two. I always pictured myself getting married right out of college and having babies quickly. So thankful that I trusted my heart and waited on God to give me my soul-mate, even if it took a little bit longer than I had planned. And now here we are expecting a baby girl in two months. God's plan is perfect.
- I figured that I would have gone back to school by now. I have always enjoyed school and I planned to go back and get my master's, but now I honestly have no desire to do that...at all. I'm happy where I am in my job and I want to focus on our family.
- I never thought that I'd have had a miscarriage...at this age or at any age. I don't know all the reasons why our first baby had to go to heaven so quickly, but I do know that it has shaped me as a person and a mother. I appreciate the miracle of pregnancy more now than ever before. It may seem common because it happens so much, but it doesn't happen for everyone. It really is a true miracle and I will never take it for granted.
It's crazy how I had "plans" for my life, thinking that it would be perfect MY way, but really the best plans are all the Lord's and the only perfect way is HIS way. And I really wouldn't change any of it at all. He knows all the desires of my heart.
I am so blessed.
27 is going to be a great year.